Given The Circumstance

I am driving on my way to work. I am driving as I have been driving all these years. I am making minute travels across a sphere whose circumphrence I have never seen with my own eye, enclosed with gravity, I still seem to be driving across a plane. I am driving to work.

A similar voyage, be it the cooler blue alien fields of psychedelic hallucinogen colors produced in "2001 A Space Odyssey," or into the golden Rubedo of "The Fountain." The point of each journey is to reach the end of all stories, and stories about stories and achieve renewal through annihilation in an abundance of energy (the closest earthly equivalent would be putting oneself into an active volcano). The problem is that this event has been expressed from many different angles already to say the least.

But there are many many stories. And each story and the finest articulations of each story must be thought out, and thought through. This is where it apparently seems that the stories are endless, possibly a bad infinity of repetition: this is the definition of "Nausea" at it's worst: continual redundance that one is forced to live out over and over. One has enough "sense" to understand that one is forced to a cruel repetition.

The longest travel yet imagined is a 12-hundred light year journey as imagined in Arnofsky's "Fountain" (oh yes, we know that the universe is a lot larger, but we have not imagined this as a journey in any significant manner). We could say that it lasts only as many thoughts and stories take for it to get there, for what else to we really measure time by in the absolute sense, but the prevailance of certain images and the time it takes to digest them. What was the purpose of such a lengthy trip? Renewal and Annihilation? Easily stated, but hardly meant. It certainly was a significantly greater distance than my entire trip to and from my banal place of work (working as I am within a sphere or structure whose intent I am unable to perceive in any significant manner--- so I report on minutia of the day and call these reports "Bestandsaufnahmen" concerning films I have seen or particularly satisfying experiences of various colors and flavors of desire...